Unless the Lord builds the house,
the builders labor in vain.
Unless the Lord watches over the city,
the guards stand watch in vain.
In vain you rise early
and stay up late,
toiling for food to eat—
for he grants sleep to those he loves.
Some times we have read these verses and laughed at the final line here and wondered if God loves us. Since our 2nd son was born with significant reflux we are yet to know solid sleep. Splitting the night into shifts of 4 hours was how much of the six months went and nothing has been consistent since either. This has been compounded by our eldest having sleep apnea since he was 9 months but has since been resoloved with having his tonsils out this summer. But as I have spent this week in the words of Matt 11:28 and Isaiah I read these words afresh this morning; even as I read them by flashlight trying to convince 2nd son to stay asleep while sprawled across me and the bump.
As we have seen this week God does not grow weary but He knows we do and He gives us the strength to rise up like eagles. I was also reminded of words of His I read on retreat a couple of weeks ago where He gently leads those with young. And so I sit with these words and the words that He has prepared good works for us and that His burden is light. If He grants sleep to those He loves, He offers rest, He prepares good works for us to do and gently leads those of us who are carrying young; then maybe we need to reconsider all that we are doing if we are tired and wearied and burdened. That God is not a task master and maybe the sleep we get in broken snippets is enough for all that He,not us, have called us to do this day. Maybe His to do list for us this day is not as frenetic or impressive as the one we have drawn up. It may mean things, evven good things get left off, but maybe that is okay. And we will find that the sleep we get is sufficent to enable us to come to Him, to find our rest and repentance in Him and to walk through the day doing that which He has called us to.